I wish I had the words to blog more often. Pregnancy fried my brain. Motherhood destroyed it. My mind just doesn't function like it should. I've made numerous big mistakes at work in the last few weeks which have led to the words "fired" so someone overheard and passed along to my attention. I packed my bag, and have it discreetly underneath my desk...just in case....much less embarassing being walked out when you don't have to pack and cry for a few minutes before departure!
Otherwise, my "babies" are almost 18 months. Every day I see them do something new, say something new, get a concept I wouldn't think a "baby" could get. I'm not ready to accept they aren't babies anymore. Didn't I just give birth??
I have been getting more brave. We went to the library last week. We got a good hour of play in til they realized books could be ripped off the shelves, blinds could be messed with, and things could be thrown around. But hey, they had a new experience and that's what I'm trying to do for them. It's so easy for me to get in the rut of staying home all day, not even making it outside. I am the first to admit I am lazy, and fat, very fat. I am 20 lbs. heavier than I was a year ago. I just don't have the motivation to lose it. I am 50 lbs heavier than where I should be, I just wish I cared more. Every Sunday I intend to diet Monday, and every Monday I decide to wait a week. Ugh!
O got another ear infection but I asked the ped if we could just do ea.r dro.ps, no anti.bi.otics since he's been on so many. His tubes at least do the job of draining the infection so he's not in pain when he gets these. The drops blew the infection away so now at least I know we can do drops and not subject him to yet another anti.bi.iotic. E continues to be healthy other than a yeast infection we fought for awhile. Now it seems to come back in more of a little rash that I can kick w/o the yeast cream. I think its a reaction to acidic foods. Poor kids gotta avoid all the goods! We do feed O certain things, like he had cake this weekend at a baby shower, and a piece of cake a couple weeks ago at a bday party. No reaction. So the whole eg.g thing is just confusing.
The kids personalities continue to develop. I thought E would be my big troublemaker and O would just follow her lead. Nope, WRONG-O! Totally opposite. E doesn't like getting in trouble, although she is very sneaky when she does cause trouble. O just does it right in front of me. Flashes me the "smile" and then just does it. He isn't as keen on listening like she is. He is quite a sweetheart though, loves to give E hugs and kisses when she's sad. Her, not so much. He is good at sharing, she is not, unless she gets something out of it.
They are just SO different, and SO much fun!
My house is even messier than when I worked FT. And I don't care. There is nothing like every day being like the previous day, because it makes me feel like its another long day where I get to teach them things, get lots of hugs and kisses, and just watch them. They are my little miracles and even after all this time, I am still afraid this is a cruel dream and I'm going to wake up from it.
Monday, November 23, 2009
Sunday, October 4, 2009
16 months!
Woops, it's been 2 months?
The last month has been the greatest month yet. I am finally part-time and loving it. I get a little cranky when I know I'm going to work the next day, which is pathetic since I only work two days a week! I wish I had made this change in my life sooner. I am having a blast with the kids. They just turned 16 mo. old yesterday and as usual, this is my new favorite age. The speed at which they learn new things is amazing!
Since the last post O had tubes put in his ears. He did have an ear infection soon after, but none since. E has a yeas.t infection which doesn't seem to be going away with the prescribed ointment. It's almost gone but it's still lingering. I usually blow on her vajay.jay to dry her before applying the cream, so now O thinks he should help out with the task. I'm sure the babysitter is a little confused since I never told her to do any blowing. So when O comes over there, I'm sure she thinks we have some weird things going on at home. As for the babysitter, we like her, don't know her well enough to love her. At least at the daycare I could look on the whiteboard and see what they did every day. I have no clue what my kids do there. I miss my print out that says they had X number of poops, this is the time they ate, they went outside today, etc. Oh well, small price to pay! We also had to switch pediatricians since we switched to DH's insurance. So far I am pretty happy with the new place and doctor. It's 3 minutes from my house so if I have to take them on a day off, it's a quick drive. I also had to get a new OB which broke my heart because I really trusted mine, but this new one is way more sociable and we really clicked. So all in all, this big life change has turned out to be a good thing all around.
We also got O aller.gy tested, and he is all.ergic to eggs severly, and peanuts moderately. The peanuts is much easier to get around. It's amazing what has eggs in it. Yesterday I accidentally gave him noodles that had egg in it and he threw up twice that evening. I felt terrible. We are using S.oy N.ut butter as a PB replacement and that works well for PB&Js. So far he has had the short end of the stick when it comes to health compared to E.
I was just thinking today how I really, REALLY love having twins. I would say I did NOT feel this way the first few months. It's hard, so incredibly hard. But at this age, they can walk where they need to go. Of course one is destined to run in the street, but eventually we all end up where we need to be. Going places with them alone is a challenge, so we don't do much of it. The backyard is sometimes an adventure in itself. The kids are so smart! They don't talk tons yet, but the words are forming. I thought for sure E would be the first to spew out words, but O actually has a bigger vocabulary. They both LOVE to dance! We do swim class one day a week and music another, both activites they really enjoy. My favorite times are the mornings. After they get up at 6:30 (Mom is showered, dress, and ready to take on the world at this point), they like to drag their blankets out and just sit on Mom's lap for some cuddle time. I cherish that time SO much. I know one day they won't be doing this anymore, so I make sure to cherish every minute. It's hard to get anything done when they're up, so my house isn't picked up yet to the point where I can sit and relax. Every day it's re-picking up the same stuff as yesterday. I'm getting better in this part-time SAHM position. In the beginning all I wanted to do was nap. Sometimes I still do, if I've earned it!
Well, the only two people who read this are on my FB so putting pictures would be pointless :) There are too many cute ones to pick from anyway!
The last month has been the greatest month yet. I am finally part-time and loving it. I get a little cranky when I know I'm going to work the next day, which is pathetic since I only work two days a week! I wish I had made this change in my life sooner. I am having a blast with the kids. They just turned 16 mo. old yesterday and as usual, this is my new favorite age. The speed at which they learn new things is amazing!
Since the last post O had tubes put in his ears. He did have an ear infection soon after, but none since. E has a yeas.t infection which doesn't seem to be going away with the prescribed ointment. It's almost gone but it's still lingering. I usually blow on her vajay.jay to dry her before applying the cream, so now O thinks he should help out with the task. I'm sure the babysitter is a little confused since I never told her to do any blowing. So when O comes over there, I'm sure she thinks we have some weird things going on at home. As for the babysitter, we like her, don't know her well enough to love her. At least at the daycare I could look on the whiteboard and see what they did every day. I have no clue what my kids do there. I miss my print out that says they had X number of poops, this is the time they ate, they went outside today, etc. Oh well, small price to pay! We also had to switch pediatricians since we switched to DH's insurance. So far I am pretty happy with the new place and doctor. It's 3 minutes from my house so if I have to take them on a day off, it's a quick drive. I also had to get a new OB which broke my heart because I really trusted mine, but this new one is way more sociable and we really clicked. So all in all, this big life change has turned out to be a good thing all around.
We also got O aller.gy tested, and he is all.ergic to eggs severly, and peanuts moderately. The peanuts is much easier to get around. It's amazing what has eggs in it. Yesterday I accidentally gave him noodles that had egg in it and he threw up twice that evening. I felt terrible. We are using S.oy N.ut butter as a PB replacement and that works well for PB&Js. So far he has had the short end of the stick when it comes to health compared to E.
I was just thinking today how I really, REALLY love having twins. I would say I did NOT feel this way the first few months. It's hard, so incredibly hard. But at this age, they can walk where they need to go. Of course one is destined to run in the street, but eventually we all end up where we need to be. Going places with them alone is a challenge, so we don't do much of it. The backyard is sometimes an adventure in itself. The kids are so smart! They don't talk tons yet, but the words are forming. I thought for sure E would be the first to spew out words, but O actually has a bigger vocabulary. They both LOVE to dance! We do swim class one day a week and music another, both activites they really enjoy. My favorite times are the mornings. After they get up at 6:30 (Mom is showered, dress, and ready to take on the world at this point), they like to drag their blankets out and just sit on Mom's lap for some cuddle time. I cherish that time SO much. I know one day they won't be doing this anymore, so I make sure to cherish every minute. It's hard to get anything done when they're up, so my house isn't picked up yet to the point where I can sit and relax. Every day it's re-picking up the same stuff as yesterday. I'm getting better in this part-time SAHM position. In the beginning all I wanted to do was nap. Sometimes I still do, if I've earned it!
Well, the only two people who read this are on my FB so putting pictures would be pointless :) There are too many cute ones to pick from anyway!
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Any Readers Left? (and an update)
Just wondering if anyone still reads this!?!?
Things are a'changing around here! About a month ago, I had a day off with the kids. Just me and the kids, no Dad. We spent quite a bit of time outside. We had a blast. The next day at work I was a royal BITCH! I didn't know why. Figured I just hated my job, hated the changes going on at work. Then it dawned on me. Duh...I miss my kids. My hours have changed for the worse recently so they are in daycare from 7:30 til 5:20. That's a long time. Now that DH works out of town, it's hard to get the kids any earlier. So I am feeling really guilty about that as well. I never see them. The weekends come, and there is too much to do. DO I clean or play with the kids? Do I want a stinky house or fun with the kids? So anyway, I had a thought. How about I quit! I told DH in an email I was thinking about being a SAHM. Now that he has a new job, he has better benefits. His last job the bennies sucked, so I wouldn't have had this opportunity. Well, he said we needed to talk about it at home, but he didn't say no. That night, I cried like I had never cried. Ok maybe it wasn't that bad, but I cried a LOT. It was such an emotional decision. I started surfing SAHM boards, got myself all worked up and excited! At work I told a couple of people. One was a SAHM for 9 years to her three kids. She was totally on board, and said I would never regret it, no matter how hard it was for me to get back into the working world. The other person really wanted to be a SAHM but was in a bad position in her marriage and she felt she had to keep working. She was also rooting me on. The pressure mounted, and I went to talk to HR. We are a smaller company, 200 people or so, and Ive been there 6 years. The HR person burst into tears and said I couldn't quit. I couldnt believe I actually said the words "I am quitting". It was so weird, I've never quit a job before!
She told me I was making a very rash decision and to please think about it. Lucky for me she was also PT when her kids were small. She asked if I'd be willing to work part-time. I said no, but after a few minutes of talking, I realized that might be something I should do for financial safety and just in case DH loses his job again.
So the rumor started flying around work. I told my supervisor who has been PT for 15 years. Coincidentally she is coming back FT at the end of August after all of these years. She was upset that I hadnt talked to her about it first, but honestly I knew she'd be freaked out at the thought of it since her and I make such a good team. She was on board with it and knows it will be an adjustment for my team. The word got around and I had so much support at work. I think most people were surprised I didn't do this sooner, and I wish I had, but like I said - we needed good bennies.
So yeah, at the end of August - I will be a PT Mommy! Only 2 days a week. I might even need those two days as a break. So now I have to find childcare. Unfortunately I LOVE the center we're at, just love it. I was so glad we got back in after Dh got his new job. Well, it would be $800 a month...so $50/day per kid. That's a lot. I can go to an in home for half. And since I wont be bringing in tons of cash, we need all the money we can get. So I am on the hunt. So far I have one offer and I am meeting with her Monday. I didn't fall in love with her over the phone but maybe it'll be different in person. At first I was looking for a place where the sitter was going to teach my kids things, etc etc. I cant find anyone like that. So my thought is that is my place to teach them this stuff, and those two days can be for play.
Other than that, not much new. We did get a mini-van from my SIL. It is 9 years old and a lot of miles but it rides great. I don't think I can go back now.
As for the kids, I am worried about Mr. O. He started with a double ear infection a couple weeks ago. 10 days of amox.ic.illin did nothing to it. He started on a new one Monday, and on Tuesday he started with a rash and by Wednesday he was covered in hives. So my little boy was very ill, he was stuck to me. He was a furnace, crying constantly, could barely move. I was so pissed off at his doctor, she told me it could be han.d foo.t and mouth, but SERIOUSLY! It was 2 days of antiobiotics and BOOM! She should have had me come right in. We are switching peds anyway since I have to switch networks. SO anyway, he has fluid in his year, so they are talking tubes. His ear seems like it's finally getting better.
As for E, she continues to be cute and healthy, and bossy.
They are both not walking yet and they are almost 14 months. I am not too worried since they are both so close. Honestly, I am dreading them running in separate directions. It's bad enough now.
They are starting to say more things, not much, but some. They really understand things now and it freaks me out. Go get your bunny, they get their bunny. Go put that away, they put it away. It's awesome! I love this age. So much fun watching them absorb.
Well that's all I got. One more month...and I actually get to enjoy my kids.
Things are a'changing around here! About a month ago, I had a day off with the kids. Just me and the kids, no Dad. We spent quite a bit of time outside. We had a blast. The next day at work I was a royal BITCH! I didn't know why. Figured I just hated my job, hated the changes going on at work. Then it dawned on me. Duh...I miss my kids. My hours have changed for the worse recently so they are in daycare from 7:30 til 5:20. That's a long time. Now that DH works out of town, it's hard to get the kids any earlier. So I am feeling really guilty about that as well. I never see them. The weekends come, and there is too much to do. DO I clean or play with the kids? Do I want a stinky house or fun with the kids? So anyway, I had a thought. How about I quit! I told DH in an email I was thinking about being a SAHM. Now that he has a new job, he has better benefits. His last job the bennies sucked, so I wouldn't have had this opportunity. Well, he said we needed to talk about it at home, but he didn't say no. That night, I cried like I had never cried. Ok maybe it wasn't that bad, but I cried a LOT. It was such an emotional decision. I started surfing SAHM boards, got myself all worked up and excited! At work I told a couple of people. One was a SAHM for 9 years to her three kids. She was totally on board, and said I would never regret it, no matter how hard it was for me to get back into the working world. The other person really wanted to be a SAHM but was in a bad position in her marriage and she felt she had to keep working. She was also rooting me on. The pressure mounted, and I went to talk to HR. We are a smaller company, 200 people or so, and Ive been there 6 years. The HR person burst into tears and said I couldn't quit. I couldnt believe I actually said the words "I am quitting". It was so weird, I've never quit a job before!
She told me I was making a very rash decision and to please think about it. Lucky for me she was also PT when her kids were small. She asked if I'd be willing to work part-time. I said no, but after a few minutes of talking, I realized that might be something I should do for financial safety and just in case DH loses his job again.
So the rumor started flying around work. I told my supervisor who has been PT for 15 years. Coincidentally she is coming back FT at the end of August after all of these years. She was upset that I hadnt talked to her about it first, but honestly I knew she'd be freaked out at the thought of it since her and I make such a good team. She was on board with it and knows it will be an adjustment for my team. The word got around and I had so much support at work. I think most people were surprised I didn't do this sooner, and I wish I had, but like I said - we needed good bennies.
So yeah, at the end of August - I will be a PT Mommy! Only 2 days a week. I might even need those two days as a break. So now I have to find childcare. Unfortunately I LOVE the center we're at, just love it. I was so glad we got back in after Dh got his new job. Well, it would be $800 a month...so $50/day per kid. That's a lot. I can go to an in home for half. And since I wont be bringing in tons of cash, we need all the money we can get. So I am on the hunt. So far I have one offer and I am meeting with her Monday. I didn't fall in love with her over the phone but maybe it'll be different in person. At first I was looking for a place where the sitter was going to teach my kids things, etc etc. I cant find anyone like that. So my thought is that is my place to teach them this stuff, and those two days can be for play.
Other than that, not much new. We did get a mini-van from my SIL. It is 9 years old and a lot of miles but it rides great. I don't think I can go back now.
As for the kids, I am worried about Mr. O. He started with a double ear infection a couple weeks ago. 10 days of amox.ic.illin did nothing to it. He started on a new one Monday, and on Tuesday he started with a rash and by Wednesday he was covered in hives. So my little boy was very ill, he was stuck to me. He was a furnace, crying constantly, could barely move. I was so pissed off at his doctor, she told me it could be han.d foo.t and mouth, but SERIOUSLY! It was 2 days of antiobiotics and BOOM! She should have had me come right in. We are switching peds anyway since I have to switch networks. SO anyway, he has fluid in his year, so they are talking tubes. His ear seems like it's finally getting better.
As for E, she continues to be cute and healthy, and bossy.
They are both not walking yet and they are almost 14 months. I am not too worried since they are both so close. Honestly, I am dreading them running in separate directions. It's bad enough now.
They are starting to say more things, not much, but some. They really understand things now and it freaks me out. Go get your bunny, they get their bunny. Go put that away, they put it away. It's awesome! I love this age. So much fun watching them absorb.
Well that's all I got. One more month...and I actually get to enjoy my kids.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Warning: Gushing Ahead
I've had 4 days off in a row. I took advantage of the beautiful weather and did a lot of outdoors stuff with the kids. I *REALLY* needed the breather from work as my job has gotten so stressful. I contemplate quitting on an hourly basis. We did parks, zoo, fireworks, backyard, etc. I couldn't have asked for better temps (high 70s with a breeze!!). Today as the kids and I were playing outside, I couldn't help but smile every few seconds. See, today O had his eye surg.ery to open up his tear duct. It was so nervewracking when they took him away. I tried to read a magazine but just couldn't concentrate. Then the doctor comes back, with a grim look on his face. I thought for sure they were going to tell me he was gone. But he's like "your son did great, we were able to clear the obstruction..." etc etc!!! My son's eye looks AWESOME. No more goop collecting around the eye. WAHOO!!!! Such a simple surgery, no need to worry. He was gone for 15 short minutes. I wish I had done it sooner. He has been a happy little boy today. I'm so sad about going back to work tomorrow. For some reason I'm so much less stressed out when DH isn't around and I'm with the kids by myself. I really enjoy being the do-it-all Mom. I cooked today for the first time in MONTHS. MONTHS people, MONTHS. Working full-time does not allow for me to do much of anything. Mostly because I'd rather NOT cook, and spend the time doing something with the kids.
These babies are too precious. Still not walking yet but O is SO close. E is starting to get brave and is crawling over obstacles. She did have an accident today, falling off the couch. Totally my fault but I was a busy mom taking cute pictures. Lucky for her, the pee-filled diaper allowed her to do a little bounce, causing no injury. I screamed of course, which I know is NOT the thing to do but I can't help it in those situations.
O wakes up and pushes his rain forest soother. So when I hear the rainforest I know O's up. He doesn't cry, doesn't make a peep. E on the other hand, I find her standing at the end of the crib in full-out panic mode. E has been throwing tantrums lately, can't help but think they're cute. She crawls away really fast and throws herself on her belly and flails her arms and legs. O's style is more spread his legs and throw his head down and cry. They are being a TOTAL pain when it comes to changing diapers and clothes. It's impossible now and when I have such little time in the morning before daycare it becomes a real pain. Brushing teeth is also now impossible. It's funny because they hit these phases at the same time usually. I guess it makes sense being that they are always around each other. O is now going up to E and putting his arm around here and hugging her. It's too cute.
I am so in love with these kids. I never have enough time with them...and they only are young once :(
These babies are too precious. Still not walking yet but O is SO close. E is starting to get brave and is crawling over obstacles. She did have an accident today, falling off the couch. Totally my fault but I was a busy mom taking cute pictures. Lucky for her, the pee-filled diaper allowed her to do a little bounce, causing no injury. I screamed of course, which I know is NOT the thing to do but I can't help it in those situations.
O wakes up and pushes his rain forest soother. So when I hear the rainforest I know O's up. He doesn't cry, doesn't make a peep. E on the other hand, I find her standing at the end of the crib in full-out panic mode. E has been throwing tantrums lately, can't help but think they're cute. She crawls away really fast and throws herself on her belly and flails her arms and legs. O's style is more spread his legs and throw his head down and cry. They are being a TOTAL pain when it comes to changing diapers and clothes. It's impossible now and when I have such little time in the morning before daycare it becomes a real pain. Brushing teeth is also now impossible. It's funny because they hit these phases at the same time usually. I guess it makes sense being that they are always around each other. O is now going up to E and putting his arm around here and hugging her. It's too cute.
I am so in love with these kids. I never have enough time with them...and they only are young once :(
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Welcome to Toddlerhood
Wow, you'd think things would get eaiser! And they do, but other things just get harder. They are not walking yet but I think Owen's close. They crawl all over, get into trouble, just like toddlers should. But damn if it's not exhausting!
So I am torn. I scheduled O for clo.gg.ed tear duct probing surgery on July 6th. It sounds like it's quick and usually effective. I am sick of his eye constantly tearing up, collecting goop etc. People constantly think I'm not treating him for an eye infection. And people just don't believe me when I explain what it is. Ugh.
O has quite the fascination with hitting his sister and puling her hair....Hehehe he is spanking her butt right now, which is pretty cute. They both constantly want Mom's attention, how am I supposed to blog?
I have been having more dreams lately about being pregnant. I think it's because a few of the blogs I follow have IF women falling pregnant naturally after their first one is about a year. I can't even chance it, I would then be more torn on my frozens and I really want to use my frozens. I just wouldn't feel right doing anything else. I really miss being pregnant, I don't even remember that time. Seems like it was someone else and I was watching from the outside.
The kids went swimming for the last time last weekend. It was adorable, water was freezing and they didn't seem to mind as much as Dad and I.
I feel bad but I am shipping the kids off to grandma's this afternoon (she lives across the street). I need to get stuff done around here. It's amazing how unproductive one can be with two toddlers. The minute I leave their sight its time to chase me/cry/usually both.
I have no time after work to do anything. I have been feeling increasingly guilty about working while my kids sit in daycare from 7:30am til 5:15pm. We are going to possibly try something at work where I can get out at 4:30 sometimes which helps a little but not much.
It just kills me knowing their daycare providers spend more time with them than me.
It doesn't help with my DH commuting now for his job...just puts more burden on me.
The kids are still not really saying anything legible other than the usual mama,dada, and O saying UP. I hope it's too early to worry.
As I've said before, I want to be DONE with therapy. They are done with occupational and physical is down to once or twice a month and only with E. She pulls herself up, walks along furniture etc like O does, but she isn't as brave. Pediatrician is making us stick it out til they are both walking which is fine.
I hate that I am not completely satisfied with two kids. I don't want that to be my one and only experience with being pregnant, giving birth, etc. Everything was so new the first time, it was such a whirlwind.
You'd think more exciting things would happen in my life. But it's really just work, play with kids, sleep...The kids fight constantly but once in awhile they rub their heads together and smile...its the sweetest!
We are driving to MN in a few weeks....6 hours in the car with two 1 yr olds...I'm scared.
I also am dying for a mini-van. We have NO room in my car. IF we bring the stroller, forget a suitcase...The stroller takes up the whole trunk. It's so cluttered. There are a couple for sale around here, but that money is our finish the basement money. And I really want that done so I don't feel so cluttered in my house. But I want a mini-van. Dammit!
So I am torn. I scheduled O for clo.gg.ed tear duct probing surgery on July 6th. It sounds like it's quick and usually effective. I am sick of his eye constantly tearing up, collecting goop etc. People constantly think I'm not treating him for an eye infection. And people just don't believe me when I explain what it is. Ugh.
O has quite the fascination with hitting his sister and puling her hair....Hehehe he is spanking her butt right now, which is pretty cute. They both constantly want Mom's attention, how am I supposed to blog?
I have been having more dreams lately about being pregnant. I think it's because a few of the blogs I follow have IF women falling pregnant naturally after their first one is about a year. I can't even chance it, I would then be more torn on my frozens and I really want to use my frozens. I just wouldn't feel right doing anything else. I really miss being pregnant, I don't even remember that time. Seems like it was someone else and I was watching from the outside.
The kids went swimming for the last time last weekend. It was adorable, water was freezing and they didn't seem to mind as much as Dad and I.
I feel bad but I am shipping the kids off to grandma's this afternoon (she lives across the street). I need to get stuff done around here. It's amazing how unproductive one can be with two toddlers. The minute I leave their sight its time to chase me/cry/usually both.
I have no time after work to do anything. I have been feeling increasingly guilty about working while my kids sit in daycare from 7:30am til 5:15pm. We are going to possibly try something at work where I can get out at 4:30 sometimes which helps a little but not much.
It just kills me knowing their daycare providers spend more time with them than me.
It doesn't help with my DH commuting now for his job...just puts more burden on me.
The kids are still not really saying anything legible other than the usual mama,dada, and O saying UP. I hope it's too early to worry.
As I've said before, I want to be DONE with therapy. They are done with occupational and physical is down to once or twice a month and only with E. She pulls herself up, walks along furniture etc like O does, but she isn't as brave. Pediatrician is making us stick it out til they are both walking which is fine.
I hate that I am not completely satisfied with two kids. I don't want that to be my one and only experience with being pregnant, giving birth, etc. Everything was so new the first time, it was such a whirlwind.
You'd think more exciting things would happen in my life. But it's really just work, play with kids, sleep...The kids fight constantly but once in awhile they rub their heads together and smile...its the sweetest!
We are driving to MN in a few weeks....6 hours in the car with two 1 yr olds...I'm scared.
I also am dying for a mini-van. We have NO room in my car. IF we bring the stroller, forget a suitcase...The stroller takes up the whole trunk. It's so cluttered. There are a couple for sale around here, but that money is our finish the basement money. And I really want that done so I don't feel so cluttered in my house. But I want a mini-van. Dammit!
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
They're 1 !!!!
I know everyone asks this...but where did the time go? A year ago, from this moment, I was probably figuring out the whole breastfeeding thing, trying one more time before I went to bed ...for a measly 2 hours of sleep. Oh my GOSH I shiver at the thought of the evil nurses coming into my room every 2 hours to breastfeed. I am so exhausted just thinking about it. I do not miss the lack of sleep days. I enjoy my full 8 hours on a nightly basis! I need them, emphasis on need.
So today at daycare they got party hats. My husband started a new job a few weeks ago so they went back to daycare...Unfortunately E is having a very hard time adjusting and bawls her eyes out when I leave. I am in near tears everyday because I feel horrible. When I come pick them up, she sees me and instantly goes into panic mode and comes after me, she thinks I might leave her :( I SO wish I could be a SAHM. But I can't quit a nice paying job (although I strongly strongly dislike my career and my job lately) when my husband has only been at his a few weeks. Too risky. So now my life is a little more hectic. DH is 50 minutes away, so I am stuck doing all the dropping off and picking up which is pretty much what it was before, BUT if I got stuck at work he was a phone call and 10 min away from the babies. The other day I was an hour away at training and as soon as I got there the cell rang and it was daycare saying E's feet were swollen, so they thought. I didn't know what to do, but to make a long story short everything was fine but I felt awful with both of us being "far" away.
They are having a safari themed birthday party on Sunday with family and a couple friends. I have a wedding on Saturday which makes Sunday a lot more complicated, it's at my sister's house, not here. Mine is way too messy and nasty to have company.
What else...I don't know, I guess I've gotten all nostalgic lately with them getting off the bottle, no more formula etc. Everytime a "big" change is made, I get super sad. Every new stage is as fun as the last, but I already miss my "babies" because...well, they aren't babies anymore! O is walking along furniture, E isn't, but we're working on it. They both passed out of their occupational therapy, and O should be passing out of his physical therapy next time. Now that they are back at daycare they have a never-ending runny nose. I am pretty sick of it! So tomorrow is going to SUCK SUCK SUCK! I have to take the kids in for their 1 yr appt...since the last time they couldn't find the veins for a blood draw, they are probably going to do it tomorrow after their appt, which includes shots. And, well, this is BY MYSELF! Normally DH had off on Fridays at his last job...and now he doesn't...so this is going to be swell.
Wish me luck.
My babies are 1. 4 years ago I would have never pictured myself in this scenario. I can't imagine it being any other way though. 3 more years til frosties!
So today at daycare they got party hats. My husband started a new job a few weeks ago so they went back to daycare...Unfortunately E is having a very hard time adjusting and bawls her eyes out when I leave. I am in near tears everyday because I feel horrible. When I come pick them up, she sees me and instantly goes into panic mode and comes after me, she thinks I might leave her :( I SO wish I could be a SAHM. But I can't quit a nice paying job (although I strongly strongly dislike my career and my job lately) when my husband has only been at his a few weeks. Too risky. So now my life is a little more hectic. DH is 50 minutes away, so I am stuck doing all the dropping off and picking up which is pretty much what it was before, BUT if I got stuck at work he was a phone call and 10 min away from the babies. The other day I was an hour away at training and as soon as I got there the cell rang and it was daycare saying E's feet were swollen, so they thought. I didn't know what to do, but to make a long story short everything was fine but I felt awful with both of us being "far" away.
They are having a safari themed birthday party on Sunday with family and a couple friends. I have a wedding on Saturday which makes Sunday a lot more complicated, it's at my sister's house, not here. Mine is way too messy and nasty to have company.
What else...I don't know, I guess I've gotten all nostalgic lately with them getting off the bottle, no more formula etc. Everytime a "big" change is made, I get super sad. Every new stage is as fun as the last, but I already miss my "babies" because...well, they aren't babies anymore! O is walking along furniture, E isn't, but we're working on it. They both passed out of their occupational therapy, and O should be passing out of his physical therapy next time. Now that they are back at daycare they have a never-ending runny nose. I am pretty sick of it! So tomorrow is going to SUCK SUCK SUCK! I have to take the kids in for their 1 yr appt...since the last time they couldn't find the veins for a blood draw, they are probably going to do it tomorrow after their appt, which includes shots. And, well, this is BY MYSELF! Normally DH had off on Fridays at his last job...and now he doesn't...so this is going to be swell.
Wish me luck.
My babies are 1. 4 years ago I would have never pictured myself in this scenario. I can't imagine it being any other way though. 3 more years til frosties!
Saturday, May 2, 2009
E is back !!
Little E was herself today. So either the antiobiotic is doing something OR that tooth popped. I do see a new tooth but can't remember if it was already there. But it's nice to have the giggly lady back.
On a whim today I decided to go out of town with the fam. It's not always fun to go on these types of excursions. Too much to bring along. We get 20 minutes away from the house and DH asked where the diaper bag was. Had to turn around and get it.
I'd also like to make a complaint about carseats. I admit I am no genius, frankly, I am blonde and a little ... well, very much an airhead especially since becoming a Mom. I am pretty sure scientifically, something happens to your brain, because I have no memory anymore and common sense usually goes out the window. So back to the carseat thing. We had Graco Safe.Seats so our kids can still use their carriers, but we wanted to get into something a little more comfy. So we have their new seats, and DH and I read the instructions. I assumed it would all make sense to him, but it didn't. I really whined about wanting them in before we left today. First he tried to figure out the LAT.CH system, which he did. It didn't seem very sturdy. I told him to try with the seat belt instead, and it seemed better. I did a little googling and as it turns out LAT.CH was supposed to make things easier, not necessarily safer. Unfortunately, only 60% of people use it because it's a pain. So we opted to stick with the seatbelt method. Actually I have yet to ever put a carseat in. One time, and I hate to admit this, I was taking my niece home and I had to put her carseat in. I totally jerry-rigged it and it SO wasn't right. I was so nervous the whole drive home but couldn't admit I was too dumb to figure it out. I still have yet to put one in, I just hope and pray we don't move them from my car!
So one of the main objectives of today was to get my ring re-sized. My ring finger, which I jammed back in junior high, is puffier than my other fingers. Well, after having the babies, it somehow got puffier and never went back to normal. I havent worn it since I was about 25 weeks pregnant, and was convinced Id lose the weight and get this thing back on. Since I am a failure at diets, I decided today to suck it up and take it in. Afterwards we go out to eat. Put O in the high chair and he grabs for a plate and whips it to the ground, breaks into a few pieces. Oops! DH is setting E in her high chair and she grabs the plate, but I catch her ready to throw it on the ground. A few minutes later, Ispill my soda. The table next to us thought we were the biggest putzes I am sure. I had 2 different people ask me today how far apart in age they were. Guess people in that city haven't heard of twins. I am always self conscious walking around or eating somewhere, you see a lot of people pointing and you hear the word "twins" as they walk past you. I honestly never knew twins was a big deal, I can't say I've really ever pointed any out. Of course I love having two and wouldn't trade it for the world, guess I was just oblivious to the power of them!
I am with Katie, I would love to write a letter to the inventor of IVF! I actually never even wrote a letter to my doctor thanking him, but I was not in my right mind for awhile after birth. They do throw a picnic every year for the patients and their children, and when I went to that I thanked him and got a picture with him and the kids. He never would take credit anyway, he says "he didn't do anything" which makes no sense. Then who put those embryos back up my vaj-jay-jay? I could have sworn it was him.
It is so hard to imagine that part is behind us. We will never do another fresh cycle. I must say, I never did mind the shots, the appointments, the exams etc. It really wasn't terrible. It was the emotions of waiting everything out, and miscarrying, etc...That I never want to experience again. I still can't go a day without thinking of my frozen triplets and how the heck I'm going to go about putting them back in.
Tonight O finally pulled himself up to his feet instead of his knees. Now he is an addict. E has been pulling herself up on everything too, just to her knees though. It's a start. She is SO close to crawling, but still goes down to her tummy. Can' t pull herself forward yet.
So tomorrow is my 29th b-day. I never can think of anything that I want. What more could I ask for, really?
On a whim today I decided to go out of town with the fam. It's not always fun to go on these types of excursions. Too much to bring along. We get 20 minutes away from the house and DH asked where the diaper bag was. Had to turn around and get it.
I'd also like to make a complaint about carseats. I admit I am no genius, frankly, I am blonde and a little ... well, very much an airhead especially since becoming a Mom. I am pretty sure scientifically, something happens to your brain, because I have no memory anymore and common sense usually goes out the window. So back to the carseat thing. We had Graco Safe.Seats so our kids can still use their carriers, but we wanted to get into something a little more comfy. So we have their new seats, and DH and I read the instructions. I assumed it would all make sense to him, but it didn't. I really whined about wanting them in before we left today. First he tried to figure out the LAT.CH system, which he did. It didn't seem very sturdy. I told him to try with the seat belt instead, and it seemed better. I did a little googling and as it turns out LAT.CH was supposed to make things easier, not necessarily safer. Unfortunately, only 60% of people use it because it's a pain. So we opted to stick with the seatbelt method. Actually I have yet to ever put a carseat in. One time, and I hate to admit this, I was taking my niece home and I had to put her carseat in. I totally jerry-rigged it and it SO wasn't right. I was so nervous the whole drive home but couldn't admit I was too dumb to figure it out. I still have yet to put one in, I just hope and pray we don't move them from my car!
So one of the main objectives of today was to get my ring re-sized. My ring finger, which I jammed back in junior high, is puffier than my other fingers. Well, after having the babies, it somehow got puffier and never went back to normal. I havent worn it since I was about 25 weeks pregnant, and was convinced Id lose the weight and get this thing back on. Since I am a failure at diets, I decided today to suck it up and take it in. Afterwards we go out to eat. Put O in the high chair and he grabs for a plate and whips it to the ground, breaks into a few pieces. Oops! DH is setting E in her high chair and she grabs the plate, but I catch her ready to throw it on the ground. A few minutes later, Ispill my soda. The table next to us thought we were the biggest putzes I am sure. I had 2 different people ask me today how far apart in age they were. Guess people in that city haven't heard of twins. I am always self conscious walking around or eating somewhere, you see a lot of people pointing and you hear the word "twins" as they walk past you. I honestly never knew twins was a big deal, I can't say I've really ever pointed any out. Of course I love having two and wouldn't trade it for the world, guess I was just oblivious to the power of them!
I am with Katie, I would love to write a letter to the inventor of IVF! I actually never even wrote a letter to my doctor thanking him, but I was not in my right mind for awhile after birth. They do throw a picnic every year for the patients and their children, and when I went to that I thanked him and got a picture with him and the kids. He never would take credit anyway, he says "he didn't do anything" which makes no sense. Then who put those embryos back up my vaj-jay-jay? I could have sworn it was him.
It is so hard to imagine that part is behind us. We will never do another fresh cycle. I must say, I never did mind the shots, the appointments, the exams etc. It really wasn't terrible. It was the emotions of waiting everything out, and miscarrying, etc...That I never want to experience again. I still can't go a day without thinking of my frozen triplets and how the heck I'm going to go about putting them back in.
Tonight O finally pulled himself up to his feet instead of his knees. Now he is an addict. E has been pulling herself up on everything too, just to her knees though. It's a start. She is SO close to crawling, but still goes down to her tummy. Can' t pull herself forward yet.
So tomorrow is my 29th b-day. I never can think of anything that I want. What more could I ask for, really?
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